I've been thinking alot about how my brain works and i thought i'd post this journal to see if i can get some questions answered. Is it normal to feel like everyone is talking about u behind your back every moment your breathing? Like if say one of your friends is hanging out with another friend of yours, is it normal to feel like hey are they talking shit about me right now? Like they are both trashing u when yer not around.And is it weird to feel like everything u say is wrong and that no matter how hard you try u feel as if everyone thinks your an idiot? Has anyone else ever felt this way or experience this on a daily basis like me?

Man it seems like everyday my life becomes a little more like a trashpit lol. Job sucks and i seem to be leaving my house less,and hanging less and less with people with the acception of andrew every once and again. But then again it could have to do with peoples schedules and free times and what not. But hey at least i got outta the house today and was taken by a friend to see Halloween 2, it was .....ok i guess.Friday the 13th was better xD Whatever anyways im off to drink some joose (alcohol) and play some Marvel Ultimate Alliance 2 some more. Later doods

It's odd i dont know how to explain it but im in a really happy fluffy mood. =^.^= Im just all giddy and well i feel like a girl lol but its fun. *twirls in chair* I've already ran around in a circles and then fell down laughing x3 Oh and i keep hugging my comfy chair by the corner of my bed o_o whats wrong with me lol

Damnit i couldnt sleep last night from havin dirty thoughts and now i wake up and im still horny wtf.






Yes its as creepy as it sounds

Well my family and i have settled into are new house which is good no more moving or fear of living on the streets. So to anyone who was worried all is good, yet now my xbox is being a little whore and freezing or giving me a red ring of death when it wants to,damn i swear it has pms it cant make up its mind lol. Also i now have a new computer because my old one decided to take a dump lol but hey ive had the damn thing since 2002 so im lucky it lasted that long. This new one is pretty cool but i hate windows vista it just plain sucks xP. Oh and maybe its just me or maybe its the fact that im half asleep but doesnt it suck ass when yer in a good mood and all of a sudden a picture or old note or someother bullshit involving yer ex girlfriend/boyfriend pops up? Just makes u wanna kick a baby or somethin u know what i mean? I was like arg man why did this have to show up!? Now im sad,angry and horny as all hell grr lol. IF anyone feels like agreeing with me or sharing some experiences with that please share . lol Anyways this is all for now.....untill i get my new cam comment on my mask damnit xD Make me feel special *is a whore* 8D